I finished my portrait of Penny Nickels.
It took a long time. I had a mostly finished portrait for a while, but I just wasn’t happy with it. I couldn’t get the phrase Owl-Eyed Athena out of my head when I was working on it. Since so much of Penny’s work is about mythology, I thought of her as a warrior/genius with big, creepy, owly eyes.
I’m confused about this portrait. I hate it because I’m shaking with self doubt all day every day lately. I feel like a fraud artistically. I also love this. Honestly I think this is the most beautiful portrait I’ve ever made.
Whatever. It is what it is. Now I need to make peace with my life and art and move on.